I'm failing at communications. I asked for cross streets instead of asking for an address... worse I asked when I didn't have paper and pen, and about 30 minutes later than I wanted to ask. Less than an hour later I was angry, and frustrated. No responses from texts.. and I knew that I should have pushed to get the address, rather than just an intersection.
So I need to improve my communication. Ask the right questions, re-ask if I don't get a useable answer.
Meanwhile, everything has changed.
I've lost my lovers. One has remained as a roommate, but even that is awkward and comfortable. I miss being touched, I miss being able to reach out and touch. I miss the closeness, and the joy of being with someone.
When I think about it, I cry. So I avoid thinking about it.
I'm seeing their flaws and what they perceive themselves to be. Are my perceptions as wrong? I think I communicate well... I don't. I've picked up bad habits of communicating in code... but not knowing if the other person understands.
So life is pretty uncomfortable now. Just being honest.
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