I'm going back and editing some random rants. I tend to write to process my feelings when I'm hurt. Otherwise I tend to yell and scream... which I know is the wrong way to treat the people I love. This was written last year... So It's no longer painful to the people involved.
So while you were insisting you were right and pounding me into the ground- to prove that I am wrong. Even though you didn't listen to the question OR the answer...
So while you were doing that... I was hurting. and falling out of love. You don't want side conversations... unless you are involved. You change the plans... You break agreements.
Do you realize that you just hurt this relationship? Do you realize how much I resent being grilled in public? Do you realize how inappropriate you are in public places? Do you realize how loud you are? How the people you talk about can hear you?
I just walk away. and now I can't. You've trapped me. I can forgive... but this is happening too often now. I can't stand this.
This could be repaired.. .but you won't stop.. because you are right.. Always right. So you won't change. And suddenly I understand your previous relationship that ended when someone stopped talking to you. Why bother talking to someone who is always right, and refuses to listen.
You are the center of the world. You should get your way all the time. Maybe you don't realize the people you've alienated.
