January, 2013
Recently someone on a dating site asked what I wanted. Here's the response I wrote, then deleted all but the first three paragraphs. It still sounds like I'll date anyone--Recently I had a bad experience. I'm still analyzing what went wrong It seemed like a simple meeting.. and suddenly he was bragging about his gun, the NRA and judging my beliefs to be "asinine." Seriously? This is the way to impress a woman? Pound her into the ground with Republican politics... then tell call her a "Liberal"-- like it is an insult.
Fifteen minutes. He was only here for 15 minutes. Insulted my house, my beliefs and was asked to leave. I dated a troll.. and online troll.. for 15 years. I tell when someone just wants to start a fight. I should have asked him more questions. I don't like guns. I don't own one.. Don't like hearing people talk about them. Actually had a friend who insisted that he could change that belief. I don't like them. Why can't the gun fans just leave me alone? But no, this is when they need to "educate me."
Yet when I post this I seem intolerant. My usual example was shot down by a friend. Usually, I say I don't force you to knit, why are you forcing me to listen to your hobby... which honestly scares me.
"I do best with intelligent, open minded people.
"Age and looks don't matter. Personality and (the ever popular) sense of humor is important. Generally, I'm a happy person, but the loss of my couple, and chaos at work have worn me down. I'm looking for that endorphin rush that comes with some physical touch. I remember how glorious it feels-quite like a drug.
"Ah, and there's the rub. I'm a recovering alcoholic (since 1983), and don't do drugs (okay, a mild diuretic for my high blood pressure). And here in Florida, it seems that sooo many people are caught in that trap.
"My life is complicated. I've made time for a couple coffee dates.
"I don't have time for a relationship, but I miss being touched. Or I need a work out buddy... so I can get stronger to deal with the whole dating scene.
"Complicated, conflicted, tying up loose ends. Last year, everything changed, and now I just want to create some new energy, and beginnings. "
So far, this year has proved to be less than pleasant. A bout of food poisoning, and the loss of a valued co-worker. I've recovered; she's moved to greener pastures. We'll see what the future holds.
