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Tuesday, October 9, 2012

What I want... and what I don't want...

I'm not sure when I wrote this... With the numbers I can guess it was around the date I've attached to it.  I'm glad this time of my life is over.  I'm glad I'm able to ask for what I need.  Communication.. It's so important.



I'm guessing some will be offended.  Sorry.

Currently, I'm between relationships.  Or when I get really frustrated... I'll never have sex again.

In the past 7 years, I've had sex for 1.5 years.  Five years I was with someone who just drifted away from sex.  It was a bit of everything: He was too depressed to have sex; He turned me down for sex several times, so I stopped asking; He was on medication that had "sexual side effects."  Ultimately, we got out of the habit.  Now, we had never been bunnies.  In our most randy months, we'd have sex three times.

So here's a list of don't want: Depressed men, Medicated men who can't perform, Men with no sense of self.

I like sex.  I love the lift it gives to my mood.  And currently, I can't even think of someone I'd like to fuck.  I recently picked up The Ethical Slut.